Saturday, August 14, 2010

I am His Vs He is mine!

You were told yesterday (read: The Lover, the Beloved and the Divine Love) about three entities: the lover, the Beloved and love. You were also told that the Beloved is one who possesses Divine love. This “love” is God’s most intimate personal power which can be attained only by the Grace of a rasik Saint. It cannot be attained through personal effort. This is why even the greatest yogis, ascetics and liberated, pure-hearted paramahansas beg for Divine love. The treasure house of this love is Shree Krishna and His associates alone. No one else can lay claim to owning this power called “love.” No personality controlled by Maya, not even the king of heaven, can occupy the seat of the Beloved. Wherever maya exists, it is absolutely apparent that Divine love has not been attained, and one who is devoid of Divine love, cannot occupy the seat of the Beloved. Therefore, no material personality can be the Beloved.
The fact is that we cannot do without establishing a loving relationship with God. The scriptures tell us about three different ways to love Him, or surrender to Him: 
तस्यैवाहं ममैवासौ स एवाहमितित्रिधा ।

One way to love Him is to think, “I am his.”  Another way to love Him is to think, “He is mine.”  Yet another love is, “I am he.”  The first two are forms of love one can practice, but the third cannot be practiced.  It is a special state, in which the lover feels himself to be the Beloved.
स एवाहं
In this state, the servant-master relationship gets hidden. Sufi Saints also speak of this state:
हम वन्दः मौलास्तम्
 “I am the servant as well as the master.  I am the lover as well as the Beloved.  I am the worshipper as well as the worshipped.”  Sufi philosophy also says: 
हमः अजोस्त
 “The entire world has emanated from God.”  Now, this is a different view point.  On the one hand, Sufism says, “I am the servant as well as the master.”  On the other, it says, “Everything that exists has emanated from God.”  Our Vedas say the same: 
यतो वा इमानि भूतानि जायन्ते । (Ved)
“The entire world has come forth from God.”  
There is a third Sufi view point, and that is: 
हमः ओस्त
“Everything is He.”  The Vedas also say the same:
सर्व खल्विदं ब्रम्ह
“Everything is God.”
सकलमिदमहं च वासुदेवः ।
“Everything is Vasudev, everything is Krishna.”
Out of these three philosophies, स एवाहमिति त्रिधा is not a philosophy at all; it is a special stage of love that is attained.  Constantly thinking about the Beloved, the lover becomes so absorbed in him that he starts feeling himself to be the Beloved.  This is a very elevated stage.  Ramakrishna Paramhans would hold a flower garland in his hands to put on Mother Kali and saying “Mother, Mother, Mother,” he would place the garland around his own neck.  He would consider himself to be the Divine Mother.  He was not acting, mind you.  The fact was that he was not conscious of what he was doing.  He was in a state of complete unity with the Divine Mother.
प्रसादे सा दिशि दिशि च सा पृष्ठतः सा पुरः सा,
पर्यके सा पथि पथि च सा तद्वियोगातुरस्य ।
हंहो चेतः प्रकृतिरपरा नास्ति मे काऽपि सा सा,
सा सा सा सा जगति सकले कोऽयमद्वैतवादः ॥
This is a unique stage of love in which the servant starts feeling himself to be the master, and the mast
er starts thinking himself to be the servant.  You must have heard or read in the Ramayan: 
प्रभु तरु तर कपि डार पर ।
Shree Ram is sitting under a tree, and Hanuman and other Divine personalities are sitting on the branches of the same tree.  Pay attention to this.  This is not Shree Krishna that we are talking about, who i
s the embodiment of Love.  Ram’s descension was that of maryada (decorum and propriety of conduct) where we have Saints like Bharat describing the qualities and rules governing the sentiment of servitude.
सिर बल चलउँ उचित अस मोरा । सब ते सेवक धर्म कठोरा ॥
 “The servant should place his head where the master’s lotus feet have treaded.”  And devotees like Hanuman are embodiments of the sentiment of servitude.  They are not madhurya bhao Saints who can act as they please and take liberties with God.  But, these dasya bhao Saints are acting in this improper way by sitting at higher level than their master.  But Ram does not feel insulted, nor does He chastise them.  “What kind of misbehavior is this, sitting above Me?  If you don’t want to sit below, at least sit at the same level.”  Seeing that it was not possible to sit at a lower level than Shree Ram, the devotees should have at least sat at the same level as Him.  Because it is the period of exile and because there is no throne available in the jungl
e, Ram is sitting under a tree.  It is not wrong for devotees in this circumstance to be seated at the same level as their Lord.  But how is it that they are sitting directly above His head?  You all know that this is what happened.  Is this an accident perhaps?  No, no.  The fact is that Hanuman and others have lost the awareness that they are servants. 
स एवाहमितित्रिधा ।
They are all feeling that they are Ram, and Ram is feeling that He is the servant.  Otherwise, do you think that Shree Ram, who dealt with Shoorpanakha’s misbehavior so harshly that He had her nose and ears cut off, would permit such a breach of etiquette here?  Hanuman and others were also not in a normal state of consciousness, else they would not have sat above Shree Ram.  They were all absorbed in Divine love.  Had even one been normal he could have pointed out to the others what was going on.  Even one sensible man
in a group can drill some sense into the rest.  But, here they were all in a state of samadhi induced by extreme love.
This is an elevated state of love of God, but we have to begin by developing the two sentiments within us: “I am His,” and “He is mine.”  Consider both carefully.  Which of the two sentiments do you prefer?  Do you prefer to think, “I am His,” or “He is mine?”  We sing from the Prem Ras Madira:  
हमरी ओर टुक हेरो री किशोरी राधे ।
“O Shree Radha Rani!  Cast a glance in my direction.”  We also sing:
अपनी ओर टुक हेरो री किशोरी राधे 
“You are eternally mine, and I am eternally Yours.”  Both sentiments are covered.  Some prefer to think, “I am His.”  Some prefer to think, “He is mine.”  So, I expressed both sentiments in one song.  However, “He is mine” is a superior sentiment.  “He is mine”, that’s all. I don’t care whether or not He considers me His.  There is no doubt about my being His, because I am a part of Him, I have an eternal and natural bond with Him and cannot be anyone else’s because: 
चिन्मात्रं श्रीहरेरंशं
The Vedas say, “All individual souls are parts of God.”
धाता माता पितामहः ।
The Vedas declare, “All relationships of the soul are with God alone.  No one else can have any true relationship with the soul.”  This proves that we belong to God.  There is no denying that “I am His.”  However, knowing this has not helped us.  Countless lives have passed.  I was His.  I am His.  I will always be His.  This has been declared boldly by Shree Krishna personally and has been clearly stated in the Vedas but to no avail.  So, how will we get results?  By instilling the sentiment “He is mine.”  We have to accept Him as ours.  The fortunate souls, Tulsi, Sur, Meera, Kabir, Nanak, Tukaram, who accepted Him as theirs, reached the goal, crossed maya, and attained the ultimate Bliss of Divine love.  They who have not realized this fact are rotating in the 8.4 million species of life.  So, we must endeavour to develop the sentiment that “He is ours.” 
This sentiment is expressed by some people as: ममैवासौ The meaning is, “He is only mine.”  In my opinion, this expression is inaccurate.  Rather than ममैवासौ, “He is only mine,” we should think, असौ एव मम “Only He is mine.”  In other words, “I have no one else but Him.”  The day this sentiment “He alone is mine” becomes grounded in us, our work will come to an end.  We will have nothing more to do – no karm, no gyan, no bhakti, or anything else.  The last action required of the soul is to accept that “He alone is mine,” after which everything will be attained and we will be free forever.
In the world, you love many people.  What do you think twenty-four hours a day?  Whether it is the mother, father, son, husband or wife, you always wonder whether or not the other person loves you.  Why are you troubled by this thought?  Keep on loving, without wondering about whether or not the other person loves you.  You will say, “Am I a fool that I should keep on loving him even if I receive no love from him?  I will not love him any more.  I sent him four letters; he did not send me even one.  I vow never to write him a letter again.”  Or, “I sent him four letters, and he sent me eight.  He loves me a lot.”  What a wonderful way you have of measuring love!  You are naïve, and this is why people fool and cheat you.  Now, if you want perfect reciprocation for your affection, you cannot love, because if the love of the other party reduces so will yours.  If he becomes neutral, so will you.  And if he opposes you then you oppose him too.  Where did your love disappear?  This is not called love.  It is the opposite of love. 
A child loves rasgullas.  He never thinks, “O Rasgulla!  I always cry in front of mommy and daddy for you.  Do you love me also?”  No, the child loves the rasgulla and doesn’t care whether or not the rasgulla loves him back.  If we love someone, why do we want to know whether that person loves us or not?  This is not love.   It is business, where we are constantly weighing profit and loss.  “I gave you ten dollars, but you gave me only five dollars’ worth of goods.  This is not proper.”  You get upset.  For ten rupees, you expect ten rupees’ worth of goods.  If you get eleven rupees’ worth, you are happy.  But at the very least you expect ten rupees’ worth.  This is called good business sense.  The problem is that we apply the same business sense when it comes to loving.  We try to show all the time that we love the other person more than he loves us.  All the while, internally we want the other to love us more than we love him.   
Now, if we accept the sentiment “He alone is mine,” then we will not be in this constant dilemma, wondering “Am I His or not?  Does He love me or not?  Does He consider me His own or not?”  We will not get caught up in thinking any of this.  God proclaims in the scriptures:
ये यथा मां प्रपद्यन्ते तांस्तथैव भजाम्यहम् ।
“I reciprocate the love of the individual soul to the exact degree and with the exact sentiment.”  This is an indisputable, unchanging Divine law.  Keeping this Divine law in mind, you should never worry that perhaps He does not love you.  He has to love you; He has no choice.  You do not need to think that someone may have poisoned His ears against you which may have made Him stop loving you or not loving you as much as before.  Why the doubt? He is not some worldly person, that he will listen to some third party and stop loving us, or reduce His love.  Why is there any doubt on your part about His love for you?  He is All-seeing, All-knowing, the witness to everything, the well-wisher of all, the Supreme Almighty Lord.  There is no question of doubt in this regard.  There is no power that can shake or disturb the degree and amount of His love.  There is no need to speculate, “Does He love me?”  Or, “How much does He love me?”  How much He loves you, depends on how much you love Him.  “How much love do you want from Him?”  “A lot.”  “Then love Him a lot.”  How is it that you love Him a little bit and expect Him to love you a lot?  Even if your love is just a business transaction, you still cannot expect a hundred rupee shirt for only ten rupees.  The paper money in your hand is a ten rupee note, and the shirt made of cloth is worth a hundred rupees.  You should stay within your means.  If you want a hundred rupee shirt, you must spend a hundred rupees. 
 So, God loves us to the extent that we love Him and surrender ourselves to Him.  When you understand this law, you no longer worry about whether He considers you His or not.  Questions such as, “Does He love me and how much does he love me,” come to an end.  We speculate in the world about the status of someone’s love for us because people are not all-knowing and can get confused if someone poisons their ears against us.  Moreover, in the world, love is measured by external behavior.  But, Shree Krishna is eternally seated within our heart noting all our ideas and cannot make such mistakes.  
साक्षी चेता केवलो निर्गुणश्च ।
So there is no question of His not knowing the extent of our love for Him.
Thus, we should develop the feeling within that “He alone is mine.”  It understood that we are His.  If you want to say both, that is all right, but be careful in the use of the word “alone.”  “He alone is mine” is correct, but “He is mine alone” is wrong.  He has infinite souls, and you are one of them.  If ten million souls love Him equally and simultaneously, He will love them also equally and simultaneously.  He is capable of doing this.  Even worldly parents are capable of this.  A mother may have four children.  She loves them all equally.  None of the children complain.  None of them ask, “Mommy, we are four brothers.  Which one do you love?”  Even if the mother were asked, she would say that she loves all four equally.  She explains to her child, “Son, I have five fingers.  If I press any of the five, I will feel the pain.  I love all five fingers equally.  When I wash my hands, I wash all five fingers, don’t I?  No one loves just one finger.”  When even a worldly mother can love 5-6 children simultaneously, it should not be difficult to believe that the Omnipotent Lord can love countless souls.  He is the Lord of yogmaya.  For Him, nothing is impossible.  Assuming countless forms for the sake of countless souls is not a problem for Him.  For this reason you should not think that He is yours alone.  Saints always think, “He can ignore me if He wants, but He should love others.” 
Moreover, we should think, “Why should He love me?”  If it were not for His law that He loves the soul in the same way as the soul loves Him, we could never even hope for Him to love us.  You see, our body is very dirty.  It has nine openings and only perspiration and filth are excreted from all these openings.  Why should God, who is Divine, look at or love our impure body made of five material elements?  Our eyes are made of five elements, and yet we shy away from looking at a pile of garbage.  We are happy looking at beautiful roses and lotus flowers growing in a garden.  But if we were to see a few baskets of manure lying next to the flowers, we would make a face.  Our eyes are made of the five material elements.  Flowers are made of the same five elements, and so is manure.  In fact, manure helps flowers grow.  Yet we do not wish to see manure.  Then isn’t it astounding that the Divine All-knowing Lord should look at our material bodies and our dirty minds and love us nevertheless!  You yourself are not ready to love someone ordinary, below your station.
Once a prince fell in love with a common girl.  Her name was Yogsheela and she was the daughter of a brahmin.  The prince was a kshatriya.  The king said to Yogsheela’s father, “My son has fallen in love with your daughter.  If you get her married to him, she will one day become the queen.”  Anyone would have been thrilled with this offer, because generally a prince marries only a princess.  However, Yogsheela’s father declined the proposal.  The king said, “Rather than thanking your lucky stars, you are declining my offer.  Why?”  “Because I am a brahmin and you, a kshatriya.  How can I get my daughter married to your son?”  The king said, “My son is not eating or sleeping.  He is very disturbed.  If you wish to live in my kingdom, you will have to get your daughter married to my son.”  Now, Yogsheela’s father was troubled.  Yogsheela said, “Father, do not worry.  Tell the king that I will marry his son in two weeks’ time.”  Her father said, “This marriage will take place over my dead body.”  Yogsheela said, “Do not worry, father.  Just watch what I am going to do.”  For two weeks, Yogsheela practiced yogic techniques to reduce her body to mere skin and bones.  When the prince came to marry her, she stood in front of him, with filth smeared all over her body.  The prince thought this to be a joke.  He demanded to see the girl whom he had come to marry.  Yogsheela insisted that she was the girl.  The prince was shocked.  “You?  How can it be?  Where is that beauty?  Where is that luster?  Where is that beautiful skin?”  Yogsheela replied, “If you love flesh, then go to a butcher shop.  They sell a lot of it there.  If you love me, then I am standing in front of you.  Marry me.”  What to speak of a prince, even a pauper would not be ready to marry a girl with no flesh on her body.  In this way, she was saved from marrying the prince.
What I am saying is that the world loves externals and the moment there is some lack in it, love comes to an end.  We often see two people madly in love with one another.  A few years into their marriage and a few children later, when the body loses its attraction, shoes start flying between the two.  He says to her, “I have wasted my life by marrying you.”  She says, “I was going to marry someone much better than you; you tricked me into marrying you.”  My guess is that such quarrels are taking place in each and every family.  You people must hear about them.  Moreover, you have your own personal experience.
So, the question is:  what do we possess that would make God love us?  Our body is dirty; our mind is impure.  Our intellect is so weak that even after countless lifetimes we have not decided whether we are the body or the soul.  “Sir, I am a double M.A.  I am a Ph.D. I am a Doctor of Literature; I have passed my Indian Administrative Services exams.”  Of what use are these qualifications if you do not even know who you are!  Ask anyone in the world the question, “Who are you?”  The kind of answers you will get are: “I am a District Magistrate.”  “A District Magistrate?  I am not asking what job you have; I am asking who you are.”  He says, “I am Ramesh Shukla.”  “I am not asking your name; I am asking who you are.”  Again he says, “I am a man.”  “But that is the name of your body.  I am asking your introduction.  “You are telling me the designation of the body.  Who are you?”  “I don’t know anything beyond this.”  “So you don’t know who you are.”  In the world, if a person does not know who he is, he is diagnosed as being insane by the doctor and locked up in a mental asylum.  Such an individual poses danger to society.  And the government spends money to keep him locked up so that he does no harm to the public.  This whole world is actually a madhouse.  There are 8.4 million types of jails here established by the Supreme government and people are put in the appropriate jail according to the extent of their madness.  One is given the body of a dog; one becomes a cat; one becomes a human; still another becomes a celestial god.  They are all within the madhouse.  But none of them accepts himself to be insane.  This is natural; no madman accepts himself to be insane.  Go to a mental institute and ask any inmate, “Are you insane?”  He will say, “You are insane.  I am perfectly normal.”  If a madman were to accept his madness, he would not remain mad any longer.
जाने ते छीजिहं कछु पापी ।
“One who realizes himself to be a sinner, no longer remains a sinner.”  One who accepts himself to be ignorant, will become inquisitive for knowledge and will acquire knowledge of the self.  But those who do not accept themselves to be ignorant will never take out time to hear spiritual knowledge.  I have met many billionaires.  They say to me, “Maharaj Ji, please Grace me.”  I ask, “What kind of Grace do you want?”  “Divine Grace.”  “Then give me some of your time.”  “Maharaj Ji, I just don’t have any time.  I have so many mills and factories in so many states.  I can’t spare time even for death.”  This means you are not desirous of God.  You are expecting happiness from the world.  You are certain that you can get happiness here.  Fine!  Then go towards the world.  Why have you come to me?  Come to me only when you are firmly convinced that there is no happiness in the material world.  It is only when you fully realize that even the king of heaven cannot attain peace or happiness, even in his dreams, that you should come to me.  You somehow believe that Saints can wave a magic wand and give you Divine experiences.  Think about it.  If God or His Saints had such a magic wand, then why would the world exist?  They would have waved their wand and all living beings in countless universes would have attained unlimited Divine Bliss.  God and Saints are satya sankalp.  This means that whatever they desire, happens, and yet the material world continues to exit.  How can you hope that they will liberate you without any effort or desire from your side?  You have to make the effort yourself.  What you have to do is to accept that He alone is yours.  Whether you manage this in a month, a year, one lifetime or in ten lives, is up to you.
जन्मांतर सहस्रेष्ा…भक्तिः प्रजायते 
You will have to take your love to great heights.  You have to increase your attachment to the point where you feel that “He alone is mine. 
युगायितं निमेषेण चक्ष्ाषा प्रावृषायितम् ।
शून्यायितं जगत्सर्व गोविन्द विरहेण मे ॥ (Shree Chaitanya Mahaprabhu)
“Every moment should seem like eternity in separation from Shyamsundar.”  You have to reach this ultimate point in the feeling of separation, to start hoping for the attainment of God.  
आहे सर्दो रंगे जर्दो चश्मेतर ।
इन्तजारी बेकरारी बेसवर ।
कम गुपुतनो कम खुर्दनो ख्वाबे हराम
आशिकाराँ नौनिशां । 
These are the nine symptoms of love.  The lover takes deep sighs.  His complexion becomes pale as he burns in the fire of separation.  His eyes continuously shed tears.  He becomes restless and impatient as he waits for the beloved.  He speaks very little.  I remind you people every year not to engage in talking during the one month that you are here, but you do not stop.  You think that I do not find out that you are talking.  But this is your mistake.  Yesterday I did not eat because of your talking.  I atone for your mistake every year in one way or another, but it leaves no impact on you.  You are not content till you speak, in spite of knowing that I could ask you to leave Mangarh.  You are even ready to leave, but not to stop speaking.  Just think of the loss you are incurring.  You are willing to deprive yourself of such great spiritual benefit for the sake of talking.  It is evident that you have no love within.  Otherwise, worldly conversations would pierce your ears like arrows and they would sound most bitter.  You would say to the person talking to you, “Please be quiet.  I am here to listen only to the name of God.  I don’t wish to speak or hear anything else.”
Another symptom of love is that the one in love loses interest in eating.  But what about you people?  Some people are so fond of eating that they ask, “Are you going to town?  Bring some sweets for me.”  You are served healthy food here.  You eat roti, daal, rice and vegetables every day.  You feel that you are not getting any special food, so you are willing to risk your health by eating sweets that flies have been sitting on.  You may die by eating those sweets, but you do not care.  You just want to please the taste buds.  Have you never eaten sweets before?  “Yes, but I feel like eating them again.”  But I ask you.  Did you come here to obey the dictates of your mischievous mind or to gain control over the mind?
The next symptom of love is loss of sleep.  If I tell you to go off to sleep at 10 p.m., you will think, “All glories to Maharaj Ji.  He is so merciful.”  Very few would think, “That’s too bad.  I am going to miss out on an hour and a half of sadhana.  Anyhow, if it is my guru’s instruction, I will go to bed.  But I will make up for the loss by meditating in bed till eleven-thirty, the regular bed-time.”  Devotees who will think this way are rare.  You will become like this when you reach the stage: 
युगायितं निमेषेण चक्ष्ाषा प्रावृषायितम् ।
शून्यायितं जगत्सर्व गोविन्द विरहेण मे ॥ (Shree Chaitanya Mahaprabhu)
Then you will say, “There is so much Bliss in this feeling of separation from Radha Krishna.”  There is so much Bliss in the tears, the sighs, the pain of separation.  Someone who sees you crying will think you are miserable.  If he is told that you are crying for God, he will say, “It does not matter who he is crying for; he must be miserable.”  “No, no!  These tears for God are so precious that even the greatest paramhansas desire them.”  But no one can understand this unless he himself tastes the nectar of separation.  When you taste it, you will say:
संगम विरह विकल्पे वरमिह विरहो न संगमस्तस्मात् ।
संगे स इह तथैमस्त्रिभुवनमपि तन्मयं विरहे ॥
“Between separation and union, separation is superior, because in it, I see my Beloved everywhere.” 
बाटन में घाटन में बीथिन में बागन में
वृक्षन में बेलिन में वाटिका में वन में ।
दरन मंे दिवारिन में देहरी दरीचन में
हीरन में हारन में भूषन में तन में ।
गोकुल में गोधन में गोपिन में गायन में
यही ब्रजमंडल की रेणु में तन में ।
जहाँ जहाँ दखौं तहाँ श्याम ही दिखाई देत
मेरो श्याम छाय रह्यो नैनन में मन में । 
The Saint Soordas says that in a state of separation, the Beloved is seen everywhere.
जित देखूँ तित श्याममयी है ।
“Wherever I look I see only Shyamsundar.”  When you arrive at this stage and taste the nectar, you will remember every word I said and you will think to yourself, “Everything Maharaj Ji said was one hundred percent true.”
Thus, intensify the faith that “He alone is mine.”  Accept Him to be your Master, and yourself to be His servant.  Accept Him to be the Beloved and yourself, the lover.  Now, we must learn some important points that are necessary in love.  What are they?  I will tell you some other time.
All glories to the Lord of Vrindavan!

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